Racing racing racing thoughts, I feel like steam is coming out of my ears and that my body is just going to explode. Self-harm, rage, impulsive driving to anywhere because I feel so agitated and restless, crying uncontrollably, and a very strong impulse to kill myself any way possible. I can't be around people or I'll rage so when family starts blowing up my phone I ignore it until the cops call. "I'm fiiine, just doing some shopping, no need to worry." The whole thing is a total blur. I definitely should not have been driving. Sometimes it's triggered by hypomania, sometimes I wasn't on the right meds. I get really depressed afterwards. It's the worst, most dangerous state I've been in.