I'm always alone, I've never had a friend. At this point I doubt I ever will. The most conversation I get out of anyone is them repeating what I said this morning, 4 minutes ago, or 5 years ago, something that doesn't even relate to what I tried to ask or say. I can't drive, so I can't go meet people, I try online but the result is usually a lot of nothing. Online people have real lives, and I can't expect them to be there when I need them. Every time anyone is nice to me it always means I am about to be into some trouble or other. Or they just want to use me for something. There's no hope. None. I'm never going to get out of this hole, I've given up.