Good morning!

Here it's freezing outside XD

Happened again. Caffeine pills. I've learned my lession, Gonna take one pill as it says on the bottle and make coffee. I might not even take the pill and just sleep after school.

I'm a bit behind in my English course because of the compulsions completely wasting days of my time. (Manic or something yesterday. I thought that it was getting worse and would have to be hospitalized. Talking to myself, singing, highly energetic and tired but paranoid and delusional mind reading feelings idek. It's gone. Probably caffeine induced but surely it has to be living in this damn basement making me lose my mind..).

Pdoc and psychologist appointment and injection tomorrow. Never been so excited for an injection xP. Might see If I can take it every 2 weeks instead of 3.

I've been smoking used cigarettes which is pathetic because all I like is the hit which is what a crack head would say. 5 minutes... But I found some full ones in the garage..

Taking Concerta prescribed though ^^ because I actually need it much more now than recreational... I am very dependent medically but better than being addicted recreationally.

I plan to research politics heavy because I want to as well as history if I can stand that. Look at my old math book from Ireland because it's way easier to understand.

Last week I had no symptoms (Which is absolutely amazing) but now I need the injection.

If they don't increase the Concerta then I might as well admit that I'm hearing voices and getting paranoid for my own safety in terms of what I should be honest about but honestly I think three Concertas would help instead of two because I think I'm strong minded enough to allow it to distract myself and not get stressed like the past two days.

- Government ties is really why the government lies. Read it yourself instead of asking the government why cuz the cause of death will cause the propaganda to die...