I am not sure what you mean about basing myself on the opinions of others.

But my motive here is largely that I was hoping for a simple, more clinical, process. Like instead of "talk about your feelings (that you don't have)" I could simply take some form of test or assessment, get a diagnosis, enter whatever the diagnosis' 12-step program is (or take meds or whatever), then ta da- you either have emotions/a memory/and basic motivation and are cured or you can pass as having these things so your manager doesn't tell your co-workers you are "probably a psychopath" so they tip-toe around you like today might be the day your cold, calm, demeanor snaps and you

It is tiresome.

And after nearly 30 years of similar reactions I've sort of come around on the notion of okay, maybe its me... but when I finally found a head shrink I wasn't really expecting the process to be as inter-personal as it is (which I already dislike) or that the answer would be, "no clue what you are, first case of 'severely emotionless pseudo-hermit' that we've seen... also, if you keep exclusively forming attachments with yourself/in your head you'll lose touch with reality and end up like the

I'm just kinda dissatisfied and hoping to streamline the process ("you have no clue? Well, I found some possible leads on the internet") though possibly my expectations are unrealistic.