To clarify I have reached all the available milestones in my life. Some people have less goals than I do. What is elementary for me may not even be a goal for others. People have to understand my perspective nor assume I have given up. I want more than is available at this stage in life. . I can't even explain after your lengthy post. My lifestyle is way too busy to write as much as you.
To clarify I have many life threatening diseases. I will not live til 90.