Thank you! all... i needed to hear these helpful thoughts.

Today i scheduled lunch with a friend, that is the thing i am dong for *me* today.

As for working for the family: it is a double edged sword... i used to work for another small company, who completely took advantage of my time, but somewhat made me feel more important. Working for family- dad- is in a different way hard, but also at time flexible. There are days, however i just want to drop it all and run for the hills. The problem is at work- my dad (who probably suffers w/ mental issues) tends to run away from his business leaving it all to me and my uncle. When he does return, he doesnt communicate with me. Like today- he is back from his hunting adventures upstate, and dumping so much on my plate. anyway... I know any job is stressful. I know i can be lazy too. but when i am motivated i am a damn good worker.

idk.....

as for coffee, you know, i had several cups already today! I think switching to tea is much needed! I already started taking Vitex to help balance my hormones b/c PMS was the devil for me. i think its helping too.

thanks for the hugs, i REALLY needed and appreciate them!!!