so...last nite i gave in, and for the first time in the past 4-5 months i actually cut. it's not the worst i've done, just the most desperate i've acted. i was so frustrated b/c i was running around my room last nite at 1:30 in the morning just searching for a blade. i knew i had one, i just hid it better than i expected. but i don't feel ashamed. maybe just relieved now. and i've wanted to tell someone so bad for some reason. i just wanted one of my friends to know. but i can't. they've had enough of me and i'm too afraid that they'd report me if they knew. my ex-bf is already giving me heat for a few scratches. errrg. darn these people for caring. *sigh* nvm.

just had to let somebody know, let my thoughts out. ty guys for being here. (((hugs)))