I'm so sorry you're hurting, samm. My therapist has been helping me with a similar issue for a while, as I still have very vivid dreams involving someone dear to me who's been gone for a little over a year now. I'm trying to view the dreams in a positive light -- that his energy still exists, and even though it's no longer present in the form I recognized & loved, I can still connect with it. Maybe you can draw comfort & strength from your dream connection with your loved ones as well?