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Originally Posted by x123
When I was a kid, my older brother and my younger sister (and maybe one of our stuffed animals) would play monopoly. Eventually my brother would always own almost all the properties, but he wouldn't let the game end. If somebody was bankrupt, he would give them just enough charity to keep them circling hopelessly around the board.
That's how I feel. My game is over. I'm almost 50 and I didn't play the game well at all. My only hope is to finish the next 20 years without a tragedy and die from something that doesn't take too long or hurt too much.
Anybody else have these types of feelings due to aging? I know 50 is not that old, but I'm starting to feel my age lately. I'm tired.
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I hope I'm not invalidating your experiences or the way you view how you feel. I've had bouts of depression since I was four years old although they weren't diagnosed until much later. I have felt many times that it was over...
it not always having the same meaning as the previous time. I lost large periods of my life due to MI. I would think... it's over. But then things would turn around and I'd accomplish things that had seemed to be the "it" or part of it, that I had thought was over. I guess I should say the accomplishments weren't what I'd envisioned as my life dreams but they were good... sometimes close to what I'd expected to do in my life.
I suppose my thoughts now are that while we may not accomplish what we wanted to do, you can never know that it, meaning a productive life, is necessarily over just because of present circumstances. It is true that a lot of doors we wanted to go through become closed to us as we get older but there are many doors in life. I hope that helps. I hope it makes sense
