Yes, I was meaning non suicidal acts of self harm. However, if you are experiencing suicidal urges, I strongly encourage you to reconsider this idea. I have been there before, unfortunately. I have to say that after coming out alive on the other side of it, life has a purpose no matter how miserable it seems at the moment. I used to be filled with feelings of hopelessness, and I also had auditory hallucinations that occurred all day long. I was extremely depressed to a degree that was unbearable, as a result of my circumstances and what was happening to me. However, eventually as time went on, I began to realize that I was valuable as a person no matter what. I began to realize that no matter how bad things got or how I was not what I wanted to be, I had value. You have value too, no matter what your situation is. You are not "useless". You are here, and that is an indication that the divine source (whatever it is, whether it is God or simply chance) wants you to be here. Therefore, you ARE SERVING A PURPOSE. You are here for a reason. Since you are going through whatever "hopeless" circumstances you are going through, you ultimately have a purpose that is of exceptional value. Life is testing you, and it is your destiny to do something that has some type of important meaning. It's important to understand that those who do something of important meaning are not necessarily seen as "important" people by the majority of people. In fact, often times those that have the greatest impact on the world are those that are never well known and are never known as doing a specific "thing".