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Originally Posted by eskielover
Not sure why you feel filthy since you stopped everything including friendship & even told the girl & you didn't do anything more than hold hands & hug him as a friend. You are not responsible for his actions only yours & you did the right thing when you realized where he was coming from. Might have learned from these situations that comforting a married or engaged man with physical closeness only opens the door for things like this to happen. It would be good to remember this in the future & make your choices based on the wisdom you have gained from this. It's good that it wasn't anything more than that which the guy tried with you & that you kept your boundaries & made the fiancé aware. It's obviously her choice..will be interesting to see how long their marriage lasts before he's off looking for someone else to have an emotional closeness with outside his marriage this time.
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I just feel filthy. Nothing is helping me from not feeling so. Yes, my mind tells me I shouldn't and so does the therapist. But, I just can't feel that inside me. I feel somewhere I'm responsible for these men to cheat whereas my mind tells me if it wasn't me, it would be someone else. I at least intentionally never gave them any hint that I'm interested, in fact I never thought about them in that way ever.
Probably because for me even this is too much too handle, I was on completely different track till I realised that I was moved to different one. It is all confusing.
That guy is having family that is what I know. I don't know how happy he is because I don't even want to know about him or his life. Makes me feel even more dirty, fact he is happily married and I'm one who is alone gets me to the thought I'm a sinner and he isn't. Rule of Karma proves that