I'm low contact but have gone no contact for almost 2 years once. I'm actually going home this weekend and am having major anxiety. My older brother was the main abuser growing up, I haven't seen or spoken to him in 13 years. Every time I go home my parents make an issue about us all being together and have even tried to sneak him into get togethers. Ever since they did that, trips home are stressful and less enjoyable as I'm now on guard the entire time.