Hey guys. I didn't go to my internship today. I called in sick. I don't even know why. I think I'm too depressed to do anything. I don't know. It's this horrible "nothing" sort of feeling. I can't even identify what's going oin. I want to call T. I see him tomorrow. Don't know if I should try to hold out. I know, I know, I know that it's okay to call and that he will get back to me. Now I'm starting to cry because the house is such a mess and I just can't get to it. How could I let myself miss my internship and not push myself harder? Ha.... harder? I didn't even push myself at all.