Sounds like you want to hold on to your "filthy" feeling & guilt for something you didn't do to somehow punish yourself. If you are talking sin...look at what the bible says about it since that is where the definition comes from in the first place. You aren't the one that sinned in this case....own what is REAL. There are enough REAL sins we do we don't have to pile on imagined ones.

You can treat all people equal & still have different boundaries for each one. That is how we safely get through life & still have good relationships with others.