Yaaaay! Really, I have no desire to drink or drug today.

I've think I've discovered why it was all crazy. If you haven't caught my posts else where, here's what:

While in the middle of our latest drinking binge, I got put on bipolar meds. Cool, okay.

The other day it hit me that when I was drinking, I'd get in a manic like drinking frenzy, the more I drank, the more I wanted to drink. It had a hypomanic like edge. I think alcohol was negating the Lamictal stabilizer which fueled a Prozac manic like high. It is very addictive.

Now that I got away from it, I can see what happened. I never knew, but I know now. I can't drink successfully, especially on bipolar meds.