@StarGazingFish - I do not actually think I am autistic though that was my therapists initial diagnosis based on my "flat affect" and lack of interest in social relationships. But I lack a lot of those traits you mention- I have no sensory issues, and no issues understanding sarcasm (I utilize it frequently enough myself) or in understanding jokes but I don't have much of a sense of humor, I am outright incapable of developing a routine much less sticking to it and I am never anxious over anything, and never meltdown or shutdown... which is why I am doubting that diagnosis and would like to find something more accurate. I don't know if my therapist is a specialist though he claims to have treated people on the spectrum before (but he also claimed to have seen people with my same physical illness before which turned out to be a lie)... perhaps I'll cut and run and look for a new therapist. I was considering it anyway since the therapy has become just too personal. And I really dislike putting too much of myself out there, there are things in this thread I probably would not have said (too 'identifying' imo) if I hadn't thought I could delete it when I was done (but that doesn't seem to be the case). So, I might cut and run here too, for the same ol' reasons.

But thanks to everyone who replied.