I get where you're coming from...I get that too. People don't seem to like me, and treat me differently. I can say what I want and have a laugh around my family and close friends, but when it's people I don't really know I get really anxious, and my anxiety takes over and I become really shy and either don't talk to them or make small talk. I even avoid them. At the same time I want to be around people, but I get so anxious, I feel I'm going to make a fool of myself or they're going to judge me on what I say. This has prevented me from making friends, in school and college I was a loner and bullied most of the time. But then I've seen other quiet people who make friends easily and are accepted by people, and it's like why me? I think being bullied has made it much worse though, it's really knackered my confidence. I just don't know how to get over this! I'm really sorry to hear what you're going through. Is it an anxiety thing or are there past experiences that could have affected you?