Thanks but no one believes me when I'm not delusional because they all have their own ignorant opinions and I will NOT let people dictate what should happen in my life when they are the ones that are blind! Make way for the ****ing logic and if the universe actually is flawed, erase me because I want nothing to do with this illogical **** hole. All I wanted to do was live my life like normal instead of figuring out the meaning of life. There isnt a meaning.

I'm not giving up. I have to prove that what I observe is real and common sense. Maybe I wont feel like this forever, but I live in the moment because if I live in the past, I remember how I felt without this.

The only reason that I'll go to the hospital is so my mom and sister don't see me dead in my room. I don't care if their memories get erased when they die. It's at least what I can offer in this existence which is to follow my primitive brain ie instinct like I was born to do for what ever the **** this reality is

I dedicated my life to living like a normal person that doesn't think about tshit like this that is cynical