Mel... thank you so much for caring! (((((((((( Mel )))))))))

Julia... (((((((((( Julia ))))))) thank you for your understanding and your wise words. You've always been a great support for me. Yes... I'm trying to go easy on my hubby. I talked to his dad on the phone a little while ago, telling him about how bad J is feeling.

G had a major outburst this evening... hubby was out shopping some groceries... no choice- had to. It's better that I take care of the kids instead... so that he doesn't get triggered as much. G hit me hard and kicked me... threw a stool at me... He's getting stronger and stronger! So hard to hold him! He screamed like crazy....
Finally I managed to calm him down and we gave him something to eat in his room. He couldn't sit with his sister. Then he called out for me and wanted me to come in and talk to him. He opened up and told me about what was worrying him. We talked for a while and I reasured him that I love him and that he never has to be afraid of telling me about his worries.

Now our daughter's asleep after I've been cuddling with her for a bit before putting her to bed. I feel so sad for her living in this "house of tension".

Sorry... I just had to write...

Thanks again!