I'm having EMDR treatment now. I don't understand it but I think something is working. I am changing and being more self-caring. I just feel disheartened by it all, by what I went through and by it being so late in my life. I am exhausted and I stay isolated also. The only person I talk to very much is next door neighbor.

I am just worn out. I see my EMDR therapist on Saturday mornings and then on Monday mornings I see my regular therapist. They know each other and they are "kinda" working together to help me, I guess. I do not want to talk to the regular therapist about the EMDR! She asks and I have no idea what to tell her but I did tell her that - and then I was able to tell her a bit more about the EMDR. She wants to learn EMDR. Whoop-dee-doo for her. I have decided to give her a real big dose of my stuttering regarding whatever it is that happened to me. We'll see how she likes that. It is awful, really awful. I never stuttered in my life before I got to this point!

I would prefer to be just done with all of this. I am so damned tired. Has anyone else experienced anything similar?