You said the panic attacks started last summer but your dad hasn't laid a finger on you in a year... But all the physical abuse, the punch in the face, black eyes, etc, didn't that happen after your panic attacks started? And how long has it been since you overcame your anxiety and your parents started acting loving? Were they loving before the panic attacks?

I'm just trying to get a clear picture before I reply to your questions at the end of your post.