For over 4 years now I have been struggling with money issues. I simply cannot find a job that pays me well and those that are available in my profession are too terrible too consider (healthcare, cutbacks).

I have gone through bankruptcy while suffering through a terrible depression alone. I lost the love of my life my dog Beau. I barely hung onto my house.

Today I went for a job interview at a temp agency for a $17.50 an hour position. I was so excited and felt that this had been sent from God just in time as I was going to have to refinance my house to pay property taxes. But get this: One of the questions on the "client's" question list was "would you ever tell a white lie in a business situation?
I gave an example of being late to a meeting because I had gone over with a very important client and how I might say I had car trouble. THIS EXCLUDED ME FROM THE JOB! Apparently this meant that if I would "lie" in one situation I would lie in others. I was just a liar.

I almost started crying right there and then, but I didn't. I feel so betrayed by God. This just keeps happening. Whenever it looks like something good is in the works it turns out to not be good at all. I don't know how to trust God for anything anymore. All I want is a job that will support me. That is all. God promises that we will be supported, right? I have to go through hell just to make it through each day. There is no free manna from heaven for me. And then I get set up (or so it feels like) for extreme disappointment by God concerning this "great job."

My heart breaks. I feel that there isn't even the simplest luck for me. Pain seems to be my destiny---I know that sounds melodramatic, but it seems to be true. I cannot trust God. Look what happened.