For 12 years trying to get a decent night's sleep becoming more and more elusive. Lately going to bed later and later. Usually I take sleep meds around 22:00 and sack out. Suddenly in the last two weeks I've been staying up past midnight then taking sleep meds. No matter what time I hit the sack I CANNOT get past 07:00 AM. The later I crash the more painful it is in the AM. It's like a hangover. Headaches, burning pain all over my body. Ringing in the ears. I think I am going to bed later is to simply avoid it. I could stay up all night every night. I am never sleepy, NO SOMNOLENCE!!! Never. Sleep med; Ambien works for maybe 3 - 4 hours. The Xanax carries to me to 7 AM but the whole time it's in and out, it seems I am awake the whole time. My appetite is shot. Didn't eat anything yesterday. I go two or three days without food, NO APPETITE. It hurts physically and I am angry! I thought I had worked out the major causes of depression but I think it is DEEP inside me now. Part of me, like almost second nature. I've given up on napping as there is no somnolence. I'm angry, sad, depressed and anxious all at the same time. AARGH!