sure ! i'm not totally comfortable going into too much detail because i'm using my work internet server, but it just means i'm not comfortable at all with my assigned gender (f). it'd be a lot easier to explain to people if i felt totally like a dude? but i'm definitely not a man either. i'm some other ambiguous thing in the middle. the big fvck-up is because i'm very small and feminine presenting out of fear for my safety, but i actually lean much more masculine? so there's basically no chance of me passing as a guy like this. it's been painstaking enough trying to get people to call me my preferred name, but just being ma'amed or called girl or having too many people use the wrng name is. repulsive.

lmao that last therapist i had balked when i tried to explain it to her. funny how that was when she stopped listening to me in any way. :^\