I think, that sometimes, we find it much easier to blame God for our problems than to take responsibility for them ourselves. God very well could have set this up for you, but b/c you were/are willing to tell a *white lie* (which by the way is against His rules too) it would seem that YOU, not Him caused this loss.

The thing is, this life is going to continually send blows our way. How we handle them and whether we continue to rely on God is the truest measure of our Christian faith. Trusting God is more than just trusting Him when things are good. . .it's those "valley" days as well.

I've never found God to be a liar. Ever. What He says He'll do, He'll do. Sometimes, however, there are perceeding statements to what He says He'll do, such as, "Seek my face and turn from wicked ways and I will heal their land" in Isaiah. If we don't. . .then we don't get what He's got to offer.

Look at your relationship with God as if it were a relationship with anyone else. And that's the key. . .it needs to be a relationship. Two way interaction, and not just the "God, I'm going to do this, bless me please." It's not a quarter machine and it's not instant gratification either. (I'm not saying you look at it that, I'm just making a point in general.)

Work on the relationship end of things, and when life keeps handing your lemons, perhaps you'll be able to hear His voice and see His hand in things rather than feel such misplaced betrayal.