I'm really sorry grey mouse. I don't think I have anything to offer because I'm not in a great spot either, but I wanted to make sure I replied to your post and say that I noticed you and am thinking of you. I commend you for stepping into the caregiver role. I know it's like, "Well, of course I would!" but actually, in my line of work, I see a lot of instances where that isn't the case. And I know it's not easy...so I commend you.