Thank you Erin Bear....Those are some fine ideas. I have journaled ....and sometimes that scares me for letting things out but ....let me think more.

Pink... Part of this is anger at Pdoc and many crappy things that have happened at one time.... or sinse January I suppose. Meds are questionable or not kicking in as quick as he might have anticipated. I am needing to sleep. Have lost 40 lbs..thank my parents for dinners and scarey thoughts come up. Incredible anxiety.... yes even with meds. This all sucks.