I just joined today and have to post 5 times before I can reply to private messages. So here is #2

I have stage 4 lung cancer and my adult children, who have moved back in with me, don't "get it". I try and tell them what I need mentally, emotionally, and physically but they are still "kids" even at 25,27, 28. I have a fantasy of leaving "this place" without regrets and unfinished business. I don't want things left unsaid and such but I think, for now anyway, this is just a fantasy because everyone is dealing with the grieving process on their own which is all over the place. I feel sooo alone fighting this evil battle and am only taking treatments because I know my adult children still need a Mother. They lost their Dad 16 yrs ago to cancer and I'm all they have left...which is unknown how long that will be since the cancer hasn't responded to treatments. It just continues to get bigger and badder with each PET scan I have.