Hello, xx_tpm-life_xx.

Wow.

My impression is that your father has his own extensive list of issues and lives in his own reality. Any attempt by you to make yourself understood is at present almost doomed to failure. I am uncomfortable with anyone - mother, psychologist included - making you responsible for the improbable.

Some might suggest you write a "letter" to your father about how you feel and simply not send it. I think it important to be honest with yourself about how you really feel without feeling constrained by other people's "shoulds."