I think I'll have to accept the fact that I can't live up to my high expectations. Not anymore. I'm not that type of person and never was.

I say I want to study to get away from society because I'm severely afraid of my future.

I guess I'll have to just drift idk

I wish I could stop Concerta. I'm going to try. Actually I can't. The difference is too noticeable. I'll ask my psychiatrist to stop prescribing maybe.

I study good at school because someone is basically paid to make sure that I show up and can get out of bed.

Maybe I'm stuck in this life and need real help to get out due to my lack of self discipline.