I don't know what your T wants when she says that. Better to ask her.
My T has said something similair to me. ''If you woulnd't want to get better, you wouldn't had begun therapy again and you wouldn't keep coming to the sessions.'' She has said somethings like that several times when I told her that sometimes I doubt if I want to get better.
I don't know what you were talking about when she said that.