DeeAnna, what you are going through is normal. In AA they say people, places and things we need to change. It goes the same for NA. You have to develop new friends. You do this by going to those meetings and getting phone numbers, calling people up and going out for coffee, or dinner. Others hike together, fish, go to concerts. It is the not being alone and going it alone, it is the support of a network that is there to help you. I find committing one's self to such a support group helps redefine your life from partying to sobriety. Being sober makes us face ourselves and take ownership. It can be depressing if we look at all the mistakes we made or others made towards us. When you see yourself as a new clean sober person, you slowly transform into liking your new self. This takes time. And slowly your thinking changes. In order to maintain that good transition of growth it is wise to find a support group as such i mentioned and voice your concerns there as you have here. It really is one day at a time. All people in recovery regardless of MI, drugs, alcohol have all adapted to this slogan for it saves our life literally. We humans are social creatures and we need others in our lives. Be kind to yourself, focus on what a wonderful person you are today, and step out and make new friends. They are but a meeting or a phone call away. tc and blessings.