Plynstrom, a relationship does not work without honesty. You don't have to give them your whole life's history, just the low points that bother you and why. If they care they will help you work through them or be there for you when you need them, and vice a versa. I think you are putting undue stress on yourself trying to be perfect and something that you are not. They may take your apprehension, fear of rejection as being a phoney and no longer be interested in you. Best to be honest. It will make all the difference. Remember, we are only as sick as our secrets. You hold back what you want the most, a relationship because of your fear of losing them. If you are honest, they will trust you more and be more open with you. Communication is everything, otherwise miscommunication happens and most people lose out. tc