I understand exactly what your saying. I see your on that lovely drug Seroquel. I love it but hate it. I ballooned up to 205 from meds, and I'm 5'3". After being put on meds for hypothyroidism I lost thirty pounds, but that stupid Seroquel wouldn't allow my weight to budge no matter what I did. Every time I come off Seroquel I would drop a ton of weight. I'm down to 135, but I probably will end up back on it. I have to make that decision, mental health or physical health (Seroquel caused me to be pre-diabetic)? It's so frustrating, I get where your coming from.