Hey Mountainbard, thanks for the reply. I'm very stubborn too, if I wasn't I probably would've dealt with this long ago. I guess my fear is getting stuck on medication for a long time, are there any successful ways of taking a dose for a small amount of time? Or is that something that would be up to a doctors discretion?

I guess I look at it like this, if my brain was able to get me into this position without any medicinal influences then logically it should also have the power to get me out of this position without any medicinal assistance. I realize that's probably just wishful thinking though. It's also a financial issue, I'm not exactly swimming in money right now and I know a lot of medications can be pretty expensive.

Can you, or someone else reading, explain how meds have effected you both positively and negatively? I don't want my personality, nor my mindset to change too much, I just want to lose my anxiety, feelings of inadequacy, self deprecation and just overall depression.