For real though.

To the OP, I hope you don't feel we're bashing you. We're not. I didn't have my life together when I was 26 (as I said before, not the exact same situation, but my life was a mess) and it's 10 years later and I'm just graduating from college, just moving up in my field. Just starting to actually think like a grown up.

Don't give up on yourself. I do believe that you're going to be looking for someone in a similar situation to you. But that situation can always change. It may take baby steps and time, but it can change.