So short and quick....

now coming to 3 sessions ago, my therapist told me that if i kept SIing she would have to stop therapy. Or may have to stop therapy. Cant fully remember.

Has any of you been told that? I was harm-reducing. Not allowing things to be out, only in a locked box put away so I couldnt SI while disassociated. Reducing amount or severity. Then she says that. She expected cold turkey, like that....

Im kinda freaked out about my appointmetn on Wednesday.
I SI, after 2 1/2 weeks.

I hate myself atm. I dont want to lose therapy, but its not like i intentionally did it. I "came to" like that.