Stb guy, you would make a great dad. And husband. Stop over thinking. People want to get married and have kids for the same reasons as you. Some have crazy ideas. It just happens. My dad was autistic and my biggest regret is not telling him how much I loved him. Life was complicated but he tried hard. And did a lot better than me. I sincerely hope you find a woman who appreciates you for all your qualities. And you find happiness with her and your children. That's the most important thing in life. Not qualifications or a job or money. Love. Which you deserve. Whatever your history or diagnosis.