so far i only had to pay 1 class back. that was 80 something dollars.

i just feel so bad. idk whats wronf with me. but school is such a stressor. im not safe i feel like with myself. after what i did to the chickens with that weapon. i couldve easily turned it on myself. i cant stop taking copious amounts of my prescription meds. or stop drinking. but i cant be in hospital. i cant afford it and my parents would freak out. plus its a prison. i wish you guys could see the conditions in there. its questionable and horrible.

i feel like im on a nonstop path to doom. i feel like i wont make it to 30 yrs old.