So I'll try to make it quick. Basically I fell into a really deep depression about 6 months ago and completely let my house go. I'm talking trash on counters, old food in fridge, laundry piled up. And by the time I snapped out of it, I looked around and decided I need help with this place. Keep in mind, my bf lives with me. He left his garbage where I left mine. It's like because I lost my mind, he felt it ok to treat the house the same. But whatever.

Now, he has two young kids that have never been to my house because their mother (his ex wife) hates me but now that the divorce is final and custody arrangements have been made, she has no say. So we really want the kids to stay with us and not at his moms (his one son lives there because of school). Well we are in the process of making the house child friendly and cleaning. At least I have. There's things I need help with like our broken faucets, plugged sink (his hair!), and light bulbs that require a ladder to change. Well I thought this whole time that he was going to help me with this. He also has his large cockatoo in the living room that throws her food everywhere. I havNt touched that yet because I feel like he should help. It's his messy *** bird. I even cleaned up his pile of garbage he leaves next to the bed!

Well there's still stuff that needs to be done so yesterday I said "when's your next day off so you can help?" He looked at me like I was stupid and said "do you come to work with me and help me do my job? No so the cleaning is up to you". I was shocked. Absolutely pissed. Now I feel like he must not want his kids here THAT bad if he won't even help.

I'm still pissed and not even talking to him right now. I know a lot of families have a stay at home mom that is expected to do it all but they aren't MI. I was a basket case for 6 months and it's not just that I need help. I need motivation.

Then that brought up me being unable to work which was a whole new can of worms.

Do I have a right to be pissed? I admit I was lazy and didn't care for 6 months but all I and for was a little help.

Dx: BP2, PTSD, bulimia/anorexia
Seroquel 300mgs
Lamictal titrating at 75mgs
Buspar 45mgs
Ativan 1mg PRN
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