I'm in the same situation with my dad. I blame him for my PTSD but he thinks because he made good money, that he was a good father lol. What a pile of ****. Today I asked my dad for a few dollars to put some groceries in my fridge (not working right now, not stable, long story). Well he told me to f$&k off! Because I'm having financial troubles he thinks I'm a loser. To him, love comes with money. When I had a job he treated me good. Now that I can't work he acts like I'm the scum of the earth.

As much as I obsess over our twisted relationship, I know deep down that I'm an adult, I did my part and reaches out. Now it's time to move on. It's really sad but I may have no other choice.

I have zero self esteem from the way he raised me and countless pdocs and therapists have told me to just stay away from him.

Maybe you can just focus on yourself and realize that you tried and just move on. It may not be what you want but it might also be the only other thing to do.

Dx: BP2, PTSD, bulimia/anorexia
Seroquel 300mgs
Lamictal titrating at 75mgs
Buspar 45mgs
Ativan 1mg PRN
Vyvance 50mg PRN