I don't usually write this much, but idk, read if you'd like....

Hello my friends,

I'm back again. I was focusing on my recovery and was starting to feel better. At the same time, I stayed away from all types of social media because I was a little overwhelmed. At any rate, I was OK, but the only thing that I was struggling with was my concentration when it came to work duties. Since my job is mentally intensive, it became frustrating. I had my regularly scheduled appointment with my pdoc on Thursday and he decided to up my dose of wellbutrin from 200mg at 8am and 200mg at 12pm. It's worked so far, so I was fine with it. But at the same time I was nervous of a possible manic episode because of the increase. But since it's not a SSRI or a SNRI I wasn't sure how that worked, so I'm just trying to stay aware of my behavior just in case. I can't go thru that again. This summer was exhausting!!

So the reason for my post...
I've been extra horny lately, or I guess hypersexual to be technical (?). On the way home from my sisters I was driving way too fast. I felt the need to race everybody and would go up to 85mph while on the highway, and switch lanes at the same time (I'm already a fast driver, but this was excessive). So closer to my house I started getting mad with the slow drivers getting in my way so I can turn down my street. Then something clicked in my brain and I started crying and having racing thoughts. In my driveway I sit and cry it out, feeling horny, mad, and scared all at once. I don't know what to think of this. Then I come in to the house and there is my mom with all these lights on and cooking. Which pissed me off again (back story: my mom is staying here while she gets back on her feet and finds a new place) because I feel like she's taking over and I don't feel comfortable in my own house. Anyway I took a vistaril to hopefully calm down. I just had to get this out and you all I know are the only people that understand me. I'm just hoping this is an overreaction and this is a one time thing..

p.s. I missed you guys