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Sanity is the biggest thing BD has taken from me.
It has also taken calmness, sometimes courage, sometimes benignant, benevolense and unselfishness.
It has sometimes taken friendships and relationships and freightened my children and loved ones. It has made me terrified of life and terrified of endurance. It has made me meek and feeble. It has made me childlike at times and roaring at others. I despise it.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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