Thank you all for the messages and hugs, I do so appreciate it! I've been posting under 'coping with your emotions' these last few days about everything that happened, as I said in the last one I have so many issues I don't know where's the right place to go? I did received helpful information which forums I can post under so here it goes:

I burn myself, I made a promise that I will stop and I was impress with myself that I did not do it after the doctors appointment, I thought I was busy making progress! Until last saturday , with all the hurtful things that was said I did it again! 6 Days ago the ultimatum was given to me change or....... (The sentence was never completed)!

Saturday my mom took me to her doctor, I've caused nerve damage to my wrist! I think my mother wished I was still a child so that she could give me a hiding there and then!!!
All the way back I had to hear how disappointed they are, what's wrong with me, I'm a wife and mother and suppose to be there for my husband and children and not the other way around! She agrees with my husband its all the meds that is making me crazy!!

I asked my husband if that is what he thinks, and he said, yes! He strongly believe that there is only one person that can help me and I must put my faith and trust back into the Lord! The doctors made me believe I have depression, bipolar etc and then they give me all these medicine that's messing with my head, it doesn't work and we waist money on it! Here I am busy changing myself or try to because I don't want to loose my husband and now I've stopped my medication as well, what is next?

I'm so confused why can't I be enough for them just the way I am?