You're projecting and not using what you have in the here and now to fill safe with.
Yes, everyone leaves eventually. But that doesn't take what you had when they were around. Projecting isn't based in reality. So it cuts you if what your feelings and with that, you are detached from the real. The here and now. That T is still around.
I'm not sure loving T is the aim. But having experience of being 'held /respected is the final outcome