where to begin i hear ya!!!I used to think i would die in my 20s and i'm 54 now. it went so fast. i don't want to be the lady in the wheelchair, but i see myself as that. my mom is actually in a wheelchair after breaking her foot and has been disabled for over a year now. she's 78 now. my dad is 77. i worry about their deaths. i even had a sister who hung herself, at age 16. i worry about althismers desease too. oh well i suppose there is nothing that can be done but to accept it.