I'm really sorry, I did try something stupid that night, started to od, but stopped after one kind and called the hospital. So I ended up in the psych unit over the weekend. It was one of those new/changing meds moments they warn people about, feeling better all day until an impulsive 45 minutes. Got out of the hospital today, going back for partial tomorrow morning, try to figure out how safe I am then, I know I'm safe for now, but I think I could have gotten a lot more out of the weekend had I been at the other hospital here - the one that had room drove me crazy because it was too laid back and I need structure. I'm going back to the better one for partial, but it's possible I may end up back inpatient depending on how I really am - which I haven't figured out yet, figure it'd be safer to figure out while I'm somewhere safe.