Please be careful about stopping meds, if they aren't tapered off slowly you are likely to feel a lot worse . This is other people's Stuff, your health and well being is not a "waste" of money I'm not sure what meds you've been taking but having depression etc is not a moral "failing" and there are meds which can help

I'm sorry that you hurt yourself You deserve compassion and love and are as worthwhile as anyone, just for being you

Grrrrrrr at the naysayers