Right now I am having a hyper high that I can't even handle. I only got 3 hours of sleep last night because I was up cleaning. The only thing that is helping right now is weed. That's why I'm laying on the couch writing this. It calms me down temporarily. I just got a prescription today for 300 mg of lithium. Which is nothing. I called and left a message to try abilify but we'll see how that goes. My heart is pounding and I'm starting to feel anxious but I also feel really good. Like incredible. Idk whats coming next but I'm scared. My pdoc is out of town for the week and the other pdoc at the practice said she doesn't want me to go inpatient right now. I am crossing my fingers.