I am in a weird place today. I'm mixed and definitely more up than down. Last night I barely slept and the little sleep I did get was really broken up. Now I feel sick; I've got a cold or sinus infection or something. So I went to therapy and came home instead of staying for support group tonight.

I got home and pulled up facebook and the little news section headline was that Jimmy Fallon is drinking too much. You have to understand: I do not have television. I don't follow celebrity news. I enjoy watching clips on youtube of Jimmy Fallon sometimes but I am hardly emotionally invested in the man; I have never seen his show. Yet I gasped loudly enough that it startled my cat. I'm strangely horrified. To my brain at the moment he is not allowed to be anything but what I've thought he was: just funny. When I go to the real news and something terrible has happened I won't react nearly as much.

Apparently fairly random celebrity information is something my manic brain takes personally. Why??????? So weird.